I debated a fair while before typing this.
When I was a chemistry major at Notre Dame --- well, I was a very naive and fearful 19 year old. I feared flunking out [all my fault; WAY too much ad hoc basketball in the Rock] and I also feared that if I cheated to slip by an occasional really tough exam, I'd get caught. This was a battle held inside me on no "ethical grounds" whatsoever. Sure my Dad had given me every good advice you could get, but he wasn't there at the moment, and I was scared.
So, I found a way to cheat. These things were tests in subjects like Physics and Physical Chemistry and they were loaded with dozens of formulas. I was getting one confused with the other --- again all my fault due to the basketball and other teenage goofing off. I rationalized that in the real world I'd just open up my Handbook of Chemistry and Physics and there'd they be. Why flunk out on a memory issue? It was a ploy I ran on myself but it worked.
Back in those ancient times, we had to use old style slide rules. It was possible if you printed VERY small, that you could get maybe 8 or so of the most problematical formulas on the thick edges --- someone else showed me this gimmick. So I did. I was scared, and I did. I was 19 and I did.
Those moments were some of the most nerve-racking moments of my life. But I passed --- mostly --- on one Physical Chemistry exam I didn't do it, went complete Blank during the test and flunked the final. Justice of a weird sort no doubt.
My life did work out in the end. I did actually learn the material, went to graduate school, grew up finally, got two Masters and a PHD, and was a very good college teacher --- being a real terror in that I could spot someone cheating a classroom away.
What's the bottom line? What I did wasn't right. It also wasn't the most horrible atrocity ever wreaked by modern man. I was fortunate to ultimately grow up, even becoming a scholar. Dad would not have been proud of me at 19, but he was very proud of me at 30.
I have a great deal of difficulty getting behind the almost witch-hunt viciousness of some members of the Board about all manner of failures and fears and frailities in the young people we are often discussing.
I remember 19.