The news hurt Ishaq Williams’s morale, but not to the extent it did in August 2014, when he and four teammates learned of their indefinite suspensions as Notre Dame investigated their involvement in an academic dishonesty scandal. The emotions that overtook the former Irish defensive end a year earlier were more extreme, when he tussled with anger, resentment and depression.
The events that transpired in the 16 months since the suspension have allowed the 6-foot-5, 260-pound Brooklyn, N.Y., product to move back on course toward his goal of playing in the NFL.
Williams needed every one of those days to mature and add to his support system in order to wind up at Fit Speed Athletic Performance in Weston, Fla., where he is currently training for Notre Dame’s Pro Day he plans to attend in late March.
“It was like a growing process,” Williams said. “From year one to year two I grew a lot, and from year two to now, I’m a different person. It was a real progression of how I dealt with this situation.”
Before he could move forward, Williams had to confront the mistake that cost him another season.
After he learned of his suspension, the former five-star prospect withdrew from school and returned home, where he trained and said he did an internship with a global financial services company on Wall Street. There, Williams connected with former Irish receiver Bobby Brown, who works in New York City for a global asset management and investment advisory firm. Brown helped Williams shift his focus and put him in touch with former Irish quarterback Evan Sharpley, who runs Sharpley Training in Elkhart, Ind. (Editor’s note: Sharpley is also an analyst for Irish247.)
“(Brown) introduced me to people,” Williams said. “Talked me up. I was down, my demeanor was down at the time, and he helped a lot with keeping the ball moving. Like, ‘Your life is not over, kid. You still have all these years. You still have great things to accomplish in your life.’ He was very helpful in that sense.”
Williams, who declined to speak to the specifics of his suspension, said he initially wanted to avoid the process of returning to Notre Dame.
“There was a time last year when it first happened that I was like, ‘Let me just try and go to the league and not face the situation. Just try to go to the league,’” he said. “But my parents and some of the coaching staff advised me not to do that yet. They advised I should come back, because there was still a chance I could play again. That chance alone and the fact I could finish my degree was more than enough reason to come back.”
Williams returned for summer school in June, with the NCAA appeal already underway. His weight had ballooned to around 285-290 pounds, he said, though it’s now down to 260 pounds.
Shortly before the beginning of fall camp, Williams met with Notre Dame’s associate athletic director for football operations, Chad Klunder, and assistant athletics director for compliance, Jen Vining-Smith, who broke the news he wasn’t entirely surprised to hear: he wouldn’t be allowed to play in 2015, and his collegiate career was over.
“By the time I really got the news that I couldn’t play again from the NCAA, it was more of like beating a dead horse,” Williams said, “because I already felt that pain that I could never play (for Notre Dame) again. That second decision didn’t hurt me as much as the first one.”
Williams credits head coach Brian Kelly, athletic director Jack Swarbrick and university president Rev. John I. Jenkins for finding a way to keep him on scholarship for the 2015-16 school year, and he continued to work out at Guglielmino Athletics Complex. Williams watched the games from home, and needs to pass three more classes before he can earn his undergraduate degree in psychology.
The defensive end said he is trying to find a way to do earn his degree while accommodating his training schedule, and he feels free from the resentment and bitterness he felt 16 months ago. He discussed his story with 10-12 scouts at the College Gridiron Showcase he attended in Bedford, Texas, from Jan. 10-13—the first time he put on pads since August 2014.
“I feel like I took the whole two years to learn these things,” Williams said. “The first couple months to a year I was very bitter. I knew I was responsible for my actions, but I was thinking about a lot of moving parts that had nothing to do with me. I wasn’t able to strap down and work on myself and take the lashes and the lessons I was supposed to learn in the first couple months. It was hard for me to do that.
“I learned a lot after that situation. The entirety of the situation taught me so many lessons about life, and the man I am today is 100 times different from the man I was two years ago, or even a year ago. After all these things played out, I can finally look back and accept what happened to me. Accept my story and move on and let that stuff empower me instead of holding me back.”